To new beginnings

Every story has a ending. Today I can say this is the end of an old story, one I have been living for 26 years and a new beginning lies before me. Over the last year my life has gone from bad to good, I have grown as a person and can now stand tall and say I am letting go of it all making way for even better times.

The past will always be there, it never truly goes away but it only affects your future if you let it. I gave chances, chances that were forgotten or thrown away. Then a year and a half ago I took a chance for myself and found that pot of gold everyone searches for, I found myself and so much more.

I had to come to the realisation that a illness does not have to rule your life and bipolar can do that, it was difficult at first and I would be lying if I said it is easy now. Having someone who supports you and loves you for who you are, who takes you for every fault and does not judge you was to me a miracle in itself. For the first time I can say I am happy.

I might have lost one family along the way because of my choice but I gained the love and respect of another. I still miss them, I still hope that one day my own flesh and blood will realise that I am still me, that nothing about me has changed but as of tomorrow I am closing this chapter of my life and looking towards the future. My mom who I am fortunate enough to still have in my life always tells me that you are the captain of your own ship and the direction in which it sails is in your control. There might be rain and storms that comes along but there is no storm that is too rough to handle as long as I have these people by my side. I am honoured and blessed to have them in my life.

So thirty or more years later  I can revisit this post and smile.

 Remember every single detail cause you only get to see it once, some never comes along again. Thank you for I am blessed and I love you forever my angel and will love you till the end of time.